You
were a queen.
Sat high up on the throne of your sense of justice.
You
were a vagabond.
Belonged
nowhere. Seeing a web full of life passing by.
You
were a rock star
For
those ten minutes when you finally dared to.
You
were a cheater.
Those times that you hid something for him. So long ago that you can’t remember exactly what anymore
Those times that you hid something for him. So long ago that you can’t remember exactly what anymore
You
were a faithful slave
imprisoned in a nine to five system
imprisoned in a nine to five system
You
were a fairy tale girl.
choosing flowers in a deserted field
choosing flowers in a deserted field
You
were a coward
when you kept silent, both about your success as your failing
when you kept silent, both about your success as your failing
You
were a genius.
With
your unfulfilled feverish dreams in the middle of the night
You
were a horny lover
that one time. Three men in one day.
that one time. Three men in one day.
You
were an exhibitionist
showed more of your talkative skin than your surroundings could swallow
showed more of your talkative skin than your surroundings could swallow
You
were a bad friend
You
were not there when he hurt his back, she had a miscarriage
You
were a hero
that time when you stopped a thief
that time when you stopped a thief
But
most of all you were a dreamer
you let all those characters pass by in you
you let all those characters pass by in you
They
held debates, pulled their weapons, sharp knives.
they reconciled, orgiastic
they were silent, hid behind waves of time
they created mist, smoke curtains
they showed themselves in sharp, sharp lines
they talked to you
they reconciled, orgiastic
they were silent, hid behind waves of time
they created mist, smoke curtains
they showed themselves in sharp, sharp lines
they talked to you
Always
that whispering, flamboyant people of many I’s,
their variation on that one, that all too well known story.
their variation on that one, that all too well known story.
that hoping that things will get better later
that
begging that the heart, forever,
finds its type of silence
some sort of heartbeat
finds its type of silence
some sort of heartbeat
and
then it happens.
one day.
one day.
The
queen kneels down.
the vagabond moves.
the faithful slave breaks the chains around his hands
the bad friend says “I am sorry”
the exhibitionist puts on his clothes
the coward talks, in simple ways
the vagabond moves.
the faithful slave breaks the chains around his hands
the bad friend says “I am sorry”
the exhibitionist puts on his clothes
the coward talks, in simple ways
It
feels so new
what to do now?
the details change relentlessly
what to do now?
the details change relentlessly
Use
the world.
trod her down.
trod her down.
Digest.
Swallow. Squeeze. Dance. Fight. Fall. Hope. Sing. Pray. Cry. Beg. Do. Think.
Use.
It
will come.
let it grow.
have faith.
let it grow.
have faith.
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